Storms Are Passing

[jesse_the_k]

Thank you so much for your kind thoughts!

Bella’s eating dinner

as well as the eighteen pills daily they sent her home with. Luckily, she loves almond butter and needs to regain weight lost over 7 days not eating. Plop a pill in a gob of almond butter and she simply thwips it down. The immunosuppressive Cyclosporin is sufficiently toxic that we have to don gloves to stuff it down her throat, and the pills themselves are huge. For these we have to pry open her jaws, jam the pill on the very back of her tongue, then stroke her throat until she swallows.

No physical damage from the crash

I was too ashamed to check in with my primary doc after the crash, even though my pain levels have stayed elevated. MyGuy finally convinced me, and I saw my doc today. He confirmed that my pain was consonant with a terrifying incident. We agreed that I got away lucky.

In convo with my therapist, I realized

• while the driver and witnesses did shit to be helpful
• I was capable of taking care of my own needs and therefore
• Prevented further damage
• Reached out for support to helpful people, like you

All good things. The final realization is one I’ve packed away in my lock box for further examination next session: the driver was in many ways acting just like my father.

Comments

[muccamukk]

I was so happy to hear that Bella got home and is doing better. I hope it goes well with all the pills. She has good dog parents.

[jesse_the_k]

<3

[chanter1944]

Please give Bella all the scritchies and pets and hugs from me, in addition to all the love she's doubtless getting from you and your guy! Poor fuzzy having to take giganto pills, ick. How long is that for, if I can ask?

So very glad there's no physical damage from the crash.

[jesse_the_k]

Bella is always ready for bonus love!

The meds management is still in the design phase. They need to suppress the immune response that's preventing the functional bone marrow red cell production from reaching her blood stream. Chances are great she'll take a low-dose immunosuppressant for the rest of her life.

I think we're looking forward to several weeks of periodic bloodtests and adjustments before the regime is established.

[celli]

<3333

[jesse_the_k]

Back at you!

[bibliofile]

Yay, Bella is home!!!!!

Glad you went to the doctor to check in.

[jesse_the_k]

<3

I'm still surprised that even seeing a good doctor is so hard.

[esteefee]

sending strength and wellness thoughts yours and Bella's way.

Delighted

[jesse_the_k]

...to catch those excellent vibes on the fly.

[boxofdelights]

I am so glad to hear the good news.

[jesse_the_k]

<3

[sasha_feather]

Sounds like the therapist was helpful. <3

[jesse_the_k]

Yeah, I'm feeling hopeful.

[cynthia1960]

Glad Bella is home and that you have seen your doc.

[jesse_the_k]

<3

[wendelah1]

I'm glad you're both feeling better.

[jesse_the_k]

Us too -- even without Dr Scully to supervise.

[j00j]

Glad Bella is doing better. I've been thinking of you all often. <3

Glad there's no physical damage from the crash.
I don't know if you need to hear this, but: You have nothing to be ashamed of.
Shame on the driver.

And yes, you took great care of yourself and reached out to people who could and would help you do that.

[jesse_the_k]

Thanks.

Thanks.

Thanks.

[oracne]

I am glad you got checked out, and Bella is getting almond butter.

<3 <3 <3

[jesse_the_k]

...and your comment moved me to check out the health effects of peanut v almond butter.

Hmmm! Many sites say more-than-periodic almond butter isn't a good idea.

[pauraque]

I'm so glad to hear things are on a positive path for both you and Bella!

[jesse_the_k]

so relieved to be on this timeline!

[worlds_of_smoke]

I'm so, so glad that Bella is on the mend and you weren't hurt. And GO YOU for doing all the work to get to the point where you did all those good things. <3

[magnetic_pole]

I'm so glad Bella's almond butter ritual is helping. "A spoon full of peanut butter...." and all that. :)

I'm also *delighted* to hear you got some medical support after the crash. Hope that helps the mental/spiritual side of recovery. M.