Storms Are Passing
Wednesday, October 2nd, 2019 05:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jesse_the_kThank you so much for your kind thoughts!
Bella’s eating dinner
as well as the eighteen pills daily they sent her home with. Luckily, she loves almond butter and needs to regain weight lost over 7 days not eating. Plop a pill in a gob of almond butter and she simply thwips it down. The immunosuppressive Cyclosporin is sufficiently toxic that we have to don gloves to stuff it down her throat, and the pills themselves are huge. For these we have to pry open her jaws, jam the pill on the very back of her tongue, then stroke her throat until she swallows.
No physical damage from the crash
I was too ashamed to check in with my primary doc after the crash, even though my pain levels have stayed elevated. MyGuy finally convinced me, and I saw my doc today. He confirmed that my pain was consonant with a terrifying incident. We agreed that I got away lucky.
In convo with my therapist, I realized
- while the driver and witnesses did shit to be helpful
- I was capable of taking care of my own needs and therefore
- Prevented further damage
- Reached out for support to helpful people, like you
All good things. The final realization is one I’ve packed away in my lock box for further examination next session: the driver was in many ways acting just like my father.
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Date: 2019-10-03 12:42 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-03 03:47 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-03 02:41 am (UTC)So very glad there's no physical damage from the crash.
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Date: 2019-10-03 03:51 pm (UTC)The meds management is still in the design phase. They need to suppress the immune response that's preventing the functional bone marrow red cell production from reaching her blood stream. Chances are great she'll take a low-dose immunosuppressant for the rest of her life.
I think we're looking forward to several weeks of periodic bloodtests and adjustments before the regime is established.
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Date: 2019-10-03 02:44 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-03 03:52 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-03 03:16 am (UTC)Glad you went to the doctor to check in.
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Date: 2019-10-03 03:53 pm (UTC)I'm still surprised that even seeing a good doctor is so hard.
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Date: 2019-10-03 04:11 am (UTC)Delighted
Date: 2019-10-03 03:53 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2019-10-03 04:59 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2019-10-03 06:58 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-03 03:55 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-03 11:17 am (UTC)Glad there's no physical damage from the crash.
I don't know if you need to hear this, but: You have nothing to be ashamed of.
Shame on the driver.
And yes, you took great care of yourself and reached out to people who could and would help you do that.
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Date: 2019-10-03 03:55 pm (UTC)Thanks.
Thanks.
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Date: 2019-10-03 12:55 pm (UTC)<3 <3 <3
Date: 2019-10-03 04:00 pm (UTC)Hmmm! Many sites say more-than-periodic almond butter isn't a good idea.
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Date: 2019-10-03 03:44 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2019-10-03 11:20 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2019-10-04 12:29 am (UTC)I'm also *delighted* to hear you got some medical support after the crash. Hope that helps the mental/spiritual side of recovery. M.