Evidently, this was jamais vu

[jesse_the_k]

Yesterday I accompanied MyGuy to his colonoscopy. We entered a small room with a surgical bed, vitals station, the now-ubiquitous bedside computer, and a parking space for me. After he donned the hospital gown, nursing staff connected him to the vitals station, and started a saline drip. They wheeled him off to the procedure while I waited in the cubicle. I distracted myself with some Sherlock fanfic.

Suddenly the door was opening. An unfamiliar nurse was wheeling a complete stranger backwards into the space—I asked should I remove my husband’s clothing if someone else was using the room. She said, “Of course not, he will be putting them back on in a few minutes.” Seeing my puzzled face, she said, “Don’t you recognize him?” I was still stunned—who were these people? She swung the bed around so I could see his eyes. The estranged swirl of jamais vu vanished, and I saw his lovely face, his smile enhanced by recent doses of fentanyl and midazolam.

All went well, and 45 minutes later we were in the taxi back home. I’d read of the vu triplets—presque, déjà, jamais—in Catch-22 when I was a teenager, but this was my first experience of jamais vu.

Very disconcerting—have you experienced this?

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Re: Fraser knows from delusions

[ride_4ever]

The Heart's Compass by zabira. (Note: it's locked for AO3 users -- you have to be logged in to AO3 to access it.)

Re: Fraser knows from delusions

[jesse_the_k]

Thanks so much!

(I remember zabira fondly--I may have read this when it was posted to an LJ comm. Due South was my first web fandom back in 2007. (My first online fandom was alt.tv.x-files.creative, where one had to hope the packet gods brought all the separate posts of a fic to one's own server.))