jesse_the_k: Snowflake pulses white and blue (snowflake GIF)

Stumbled on a 27-year-old email which reminded me of bipedal joy in winter--walking with two canes.

It's been snowing since the middle of the night, and I'm on the "improving" slope of a remission. A lifetime spent in the northern climes prepares me for the joys of a brief walk in the snow. I swaddle myself warmly and comfortably -- minimum two layers everywhere. Thank heavens for Polartec, the homeopathic weather fighter: fluffy and light.

At 11 am the sky and the ground and the trees and the rooftops are every color white. Getting down my precipitous driveway is scary until I relearn the snow-shuffle, using my canes as balance points. At the street, I feel alarmingly tall -- what a long way to fall. The wind sighs like the seals on a thousand refrigerator doors. Terrorist snow pellets sneak in to sting my face, uncaring, random. When I stop to raise my eyes to the horizon, I travel back to a time without artificial lighting. That mysterious fog has abandoned the 19th century etchings to erect barriers half-a-block away at every point of my compass.

Tinges of snow color every sight, bringing unity and grace to the accidental architecture of suburbia. Visual static spills over into the auditory, the street is calmed to hissing catatonia. Though level ground is almost automatic, every vertical shift requires planning. Is that foot secure? Will that cane slide when I swing through? Ten minutes out, my feet begin to stray. The toes and heel and tender edges no longer recognize the cozy insides of my boots. The braid of ankle and knee and hip and shoulder is fraying: time to return. My bozo legs missed their yard-long orange shoes for the final ascent over the lawn. (They might have provided better traction.)

Inside again, I stomp five times and shed the snow. I've draped my outer layers in the kitchen, which quickly fills with a vapor familiar from tents and apartments and warming shelters and houses. I've time travelled by foot back to steam radiators and glass entryways, steaming subway tunnels and frozen lonely bus stops, the searing desert of forty below and the cheerful mud soup of April.

jesse_the_k: White woman w thick glasses, short hair, and smiling eyes looks up (JK 64 optimist)

I've often used eyeglasses to explain how society constructs the lines between "disabled" and "nondisabled." There's almost zero stigma for people who need glasses (in the developed world) -- some people wear them just because they look nice, with plain lenses. On the other hand, using mobility support devices is such a spoiled identity that "she's using that as a crutch" conveys scorn and disdain.

My glasses (in icon) -- which were the best looking and most comfortable I've worn in sixty-one years -- broke 17 days ago. Of course they're no longer made, and my eyeglasses guru reached out to all her distributors and nobody had a pair just laying around.

This really bummed me out: I felt almost as powerless as when my wheelchair breaks. The good news is I have a functional backup pair, so it's not as disabling.

Thanks equally to gentle nudges and desperation, I've been exploring the world of online glasses. (My that sounds dignified. More realistically: I've been obsessively browsing for hours.) Wow howdy they are inexpensive! I doubt they could handle my complicated daily-wear prescription, but I might try them for my single-vision computer/beading distance glasses.


I realized I was extra-vulnerable to failed-AT gloom because I broke my four-year news fast. I'm returning to that boundary. I'm not happy about it. Once I was unhappy about not being able to hike more than 1/4 mile. Now I accept it without thinking.

jesse_the_k: White woman riding black Quantum 4400 powerchair off the right edge, chased by the word "powertool" (JK 56 powertool)
I mentioned to [profile] anankastic I used mobility aids that were easier on my hands, so here are a picture and a video.

When I’m inside the house or in smooth places for short times, I use a four-wheel rolling walker. As I got older, my hands got more arthritic, so grabbing the walker got harder. MyGuy wrapped 1/2" foam pipe insulation around the handles on my original device, which gave out last year.

The handles on my new device solved that issue nicely: they’re a “palm grip” design (also available on canes).

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I use Exerstrider2 one-piece poles when I’m primarily walking on non-paved surfaces (the dog park, outside the cabin up north).

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